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I wish I was free,
But I remain captivated within the confines of my very breath.
I am consuming myself to where there's not much left.
And yet,
There is so much of me undiscovered.
The very soul within me has its own brother.
Yes, it's as if there are two of me,
Another side of myself.
I can't control the other,
And here I am,
Screaming for help.
All the things she's done,
All the hearts she breaks.
She'll do anything
To get me within her hellish gates.
I plea for her to stop,
But it will never cease.
She'll never hear,
And I'll never have peace.
I would give anything to take it all back.
Replay each scene and give it what it lacks.
You'll see no tears a'falling,
But I'm dying inside.
And the whole world wont even look,
They all just pass me by.
You think I can fight it,
But I know that I can't.
I feel like I should be alone,
Then I realize that I already am.
Now it's the worst,
I've hurt the one I love.
I've betrayed all his trust
And it's only because,
She took over me once again.
She plays with my mind,
And shes stuck in my head.
And there's no help I can find
Always stuck in my bed.
And I'm so ashamed.
So drunk with regret.
Who knew that such faults
Could make me so upset?
And that's just it.
Here is the key.
All of the answers
They lie in my history.
When I get like this and I'm no longer me,
It's like everyone else takes over
And I can't see.
I lose all my cares, worries, and fears.
My respect for myself,
It all disappears.
A darkness creeps over and I'm in hell.
You think I can fight it,
But I know I can't.
Feel like I should be alone,
Then I realize I am.
I never had the best luck with friends.
And I'll finally get close to someone,
But I'll tell you, then:
Their other feelings take over,
And I have none of my own.
I just want to be held.
I just need to get home.
But no matter how much you knock,
You'll see no one is there.
Its all emptied out
Because the only one who cared,
I've hurt so bad,
And as much as I try
To pretend it never happened,
But I just want to cry.
And you all think I can fight it,
But see, I know I can't.
Feel like I should just be alone,
Then realize I am.
And I just want to say,
"I love you so much.
I know you were right.
You know what Ive done.
Please forgive me,
And find it in your heart,
To see what I'll be,
If this tore us apart."
And I can't even search for the words to find,
A way to describe,
How I've spent my time.
You see before this,
It's not what you think.
My world has been broken,
And I'm starting to sink.
I can no longer hide
All these feelings inside.
And I can't pretend.
What's it even matter what might have been?
I've been driven to madness
All torn apart.
I've been all by myself,
With no one to talk.
I feel so abandoned,
And maybe tha'ts why it's all come back.
The long fight I've been fighting,
And I was caught off track.
So now it's caught up,
And there's nothing I can do.
I'll just lie right here thinking of you.
Wishing and wanting,
To erase all the pain.
I know you'll feel better.
I know someday.
I keep saying I can fight this,
But she tells me I can't.
I just want to be alone,
But she whispers instead,
"Dont worry you are,
and united we'll stand." | 
